People in AA have a saying...
"Act as if," or "Fake it to make it."
I'm going to try this out, despite the fact that it pretty much goes against the way I've acted for a long time... but I think that's kinda the point.
I took another Meyers-Briggs test yesterday. I of course take it with a grain of salt because it was just a free online test, but I got INFP, when I used to be an INFJ. I also noticed that my thinking and feeling scores were really close together, which I thought was interesting. I think it's one of the main sources of a lot of inner conflict I have. While I believe strongly in thinking logically, I always have a very strong sense that I should decide something based off of certain feelings and values I have, not necessarily cold logic. It's exactly why I'm still living where I am. And it makes things quite difficult, given the fact that these things seem to almost always oppose one another.
Another interesting thing is going back to the one that changed, from J to P, judging to perceiving. I think it has something to do with the fact that in the last few years, I've begun to embrace mystery and paradox. Maybe not in everything in my life, but in enough to apparently change some answers on the test.